我和三個合作伙伴走到一家大平房，這裏似乎是美國，因為地方大而且空曠，四周又清潔整齊，這家平房似乎是工廠還是公司，不過我就看不到有一個人在工作。我們似乎是在合作幹不法的勾當，但我們當中的一員就因為任務失敗或者是任務完成的水平不夠高而要被處決，而處決的人就是Break的中的大奸角T-Bag，我竟然因為利益而和他們合作。議決時要殺他時，我以為現在正值用人之際，我們要做事的人手已經不足，應該盡量發揮每個人的才能，而不是吹毛求庛，胡亂對付自己人，這樣只剩下四人，要完成任務就比以前更困難了，不過我只是一道在想而沒有把它提出來，不知我是害怕影響自己人的團結還是只是想想便算，似乎此事又變成不關我事，因為執行處決命令不是我，我雙手沒有沾血，我的良心不會受損，或者是我以為自己只是少數派，提了出來也沒有用，還是我怕現在這個日漸走向獨裁的組織會因為我的異己而把我也一併處理呢?
處理這個成員即殺掉他再毀屍滅跡，本來殺人已經不容易，現在要殺人後再要別人查不到我們殺人就更高難度，這真是浪費組織的資源在無謂的事上。因為一旦殺了他，就算是把他長埋黃土，這樣要查的人還是會翻開黃土來查的，我們組織人數已經不足，殺了一個人而要避免追查就更加是疲於奔命，如何還能完成一早訂下來的目標?
似乎是一個人負責殺人，他把他帶進工廠/公司中，似乎是用罐頭刀之類的東西來殺我們當中最失敗的成員，真不知罐頭刀又是如何能殺一個可以完成任務的人，他又為何不為自己的性命反抗呢?
他們殺完就埋在廠房附近的泥土，我不單看不到他們殺人，更是連慘叫聲也聽不到，真不知他們到底是不是真正殺了他?
2010年5月8日 星期六
夢: 追捕逃犯
我和朋友是派出去追捕一個女囚犯的工作人員，她的罪名似乎是偷電，我們追趕到監獄外面，她也真算有種，竟然可以從高高的圍牆上跳下來，不但不受重傷而且還逃得什麼踪影也沒有。這麼我們是怎麼得知她逃走的呢?就是一次聚集在一起示範時，教練發覺鐵絲網的電壓異乎尋常，這就發覺它的一小部份被人不知不覺地剪掉/或是被破壞而失去了它的效用。我之所以男女不分，是因為我們是逃犯逃走才猜測逃走的是什麼人，由她的聰明及體力會理所當然當成男性，不過由名單上看卻清楚這是女性。
說來這夢有它不合理的地方，因為最初一幕它是正方形式的監獄，現在卻變成我們在一座高樓大廈上追捕她。這大廈的高度是令我們卻步的地方，她有輕巧從高樓跳下來而不受傷，似乎是用了睡覺用的被子來卸力，不過行動敏捷，我們來到的時候就連被子也拿到不在我們的視線範圍外，她也真會玩心理戰，故佈疑陣，以為我們看不到就想不出她是怎逃走的，又知道我們迷信，所以就會有剎那間的猶疑，而她就可以利用這剎那來逃之夭夭。
既然命令是我們必須追捕她，沒有辦法只好硬著頭皮照做，我朋友發覺樓層中的冷氣機似乎是左右悔花間竹式的分開，於是可以冒險由最高處向左跳向右跳，要是不能就放手掉下再趁機捉住下層的冷氣機來穩住身子再繼續跳，想不到這居然是可以辦得到的，我朋友似乎比我的經驗還多，就算我是初哥也可以順利來到樓下。說起來這有點奇怪，因為重疊在同一情景的是一大堆看來像是存放文件的塑膠櫃的牆因一人的行動而倒塌，似乎是因為它根基不穩，上一層比下一層就是對不正，小小的錯誤漸次累積成為大錯誤，偶一不慎就可能人仰馬翻。
是我朋友先跳我才跟隨他跳，想不到平時我沒有誇口自己的膽量，不過一旦實幹起來卻似乎比常常自誇的朋友更有成就，好像是我跳樓的經驗比他還要多，想不到世事這樣離奇，他是大家都公認的「實幹派」。最可惜的是這裏只有我們兩人，就是我今次的表現是出奇的好，甚至是這任務是因為而他才能完成的，不在場的人也不會知道，只會按常理，由他平時的較佳的表演推斷這任務應歸功於他而不是真正有功勞的我。
說來這夢有它不合理的地方，因為最初一幕它是正方形式的監獄，現在卻變成我們在一座高樓大廈上追捕她。這大廈的高度是令我們卻步的地方，她有輕巧從高樓跳下來而不受傷，似乎是用了睡覺用的被子來卸力，不過行動敏捷，我們來到的時候就連被子也拿到不在我們的視線範圍外，她也真會玩心理戰，故佈疑陣，以為我們看不到就想不出她是怎逃走的，又知道我們迷信，所以就會有剎那間的猶疑，而她就可以利用這剎那來逃之夭夭。
既然命令是我們必須追捕她，沒有辦法只好硬著頭皮照做，我朋友發覺樓層中的冷氣機似乎是左右悔花間竹式的分開，於是可以冒險由最高處向左跳向右跳，要是不能就放手掉下再趁機捉住下層的冷氣機來穩住身子再繼續跳，想不到這居然是可以辦得到的，我朋友似乎比我的經驗還多，就算我是初哥也可以順利來到樓下。說起來這有點奇怪，因為重疊在同一情景的是一大堆看來像是存放文件的塑膠櫃的牆因一人的行動而倒塌，似乎是因為它根基不穩，上一層比下一層就是對不正，小小的錯誤漸次累積成為大錯誤，偶一不慎就可能人仰馬翻。
是我朋友先跳我才跟隨他跳，想不到平時我沒有誇口自己的膽量，不過一旦實幹起來卻似乎比常常自誇的朋友更有成就，好像是我跳樓的經驗比他還要多，想不到世事這樣離奇，他是大家都公認的「實幹派」。最可惜的是這裏只有我們兩人，就是我今次的表現是出奇的好，甚至是這任務是因為而他才能完成的，不在場的人也不會知道，只會按常理，由他平時的較佳的表演推斷這任務應歸功於他而不是真正有功勞的我。
Dream: A trip with Magda and Bonny
(他們是海地在美國的移民。They are both Haitian immigrant living in USA. )
The dream was rather short and concise, or that is how much I could remember. There is little or no conversation that I can recall. It is like we are in a school trip or something. The place is a cross between school and prison. I see only Magda and Bonny although it appears to me that the plot of the dream seems to contain many of my friends which I made in Judson College. It also appears to me that both of them is driving something between a private car/big bus. But what kind of vehicle took two drivers?
I seem to be a kind of luggage or the first one to be in car. Since I don't know how to drive so I don't think I am driving a car following them. Anyhow, I seems to be the first one to respond and the first one to be ready for the mission. For all the time I was outside the school which doesn't remember anything inside the 'school'. So after we waited for everyone to get into the bus/car, then we rush out. I call it a rush out because the bus/car almost hit the door of the school, and the last one who exit the school doesn't even brother to close it. What I can understand the conservation between Magda and Bonny is when she ask him to drive slower and be careful. So I felt like this is a kind of emergency/disaster so we are in panic. Yet at the same time I admire Magda and Bonny for being calm, and better prepared than me emotionally and intellectually, that is much to my surprise since I think I am the one with greatest control of my emotions. Magda and Bonny seems to the one who organize the exit, and it appears to me that the only 'rational' solution for this emergency/disaster is running away from it. There are something odd in the plot of the dream, being so prepared and calm and well planned, because the school gate which look so similar to those in prison/mental health hospital/border between two countries, beside nobody has open it. It appears to me we are going to knock down the unguarded iron fence. Or maybe nobody has the key to open the gate? So are we in an escape or a trip?
The dream was rather short and concise, or that is how much I could remember. There is little or no conversation that I can recall. It is like we are in a school trip or something. The place is a cross between school and prison. I see only Magda and Bonny although it appears to me that the plot of the dream seems to contain many of my friends which I made in Judson College. It also appears to me that both of them is driving something between a private car/big bus. But what kind of vehicle took two drivers?
I seem to be a kind of luggage or the first one to be in car. Since I don't know how to drive so I don't think I am driving a car following them. Anyhow, I seems to be the first one to respond and the first one to be ready for the mission. For all the time I was outside the school which doesn't remember anything inside the 'school'. So after we waited for everyone to get into the bus/car, then we rush out. I call it a rush out because the bus/car almost hit the door of the school, and the last one who exit the school doesn't even brother to close it. What I can understand the conservation between Magda and Bonny is when she ask him to drive slower and be careful. So I felt like this is a kind of emergency/disaster so we are in panic. Yet at the same time I admire Magda and Bonny for being calm, and better prepared than me emotionally and intellectually, that is much to my surprise since I think I am the one with greatest control of my emotions. Magda and Bonny seems to the one who organize the exit, and it appears to me that the only 'rational' solution for this emergency/disaster is running away from it. There are something odd in the plot of the dream, being so prepared and calm and well planned, because the school gate which look so similar to those in prison/mental health hospital/border between two countries, beside nobody has open it. It appears to me we are going to knock down the unguarded iron fence. Or maybe nobody has the key to open the gate? So are we in an escape or a trip?
2010年5月4日 星期二
夢:和大哥打「War Game」
我似乎是和和大哥一起玩類似「War Game」的遊戲，在一處似乎是郊區，一間很大的房子中，外面有一大片草地。最初不是誰建議我們這組全部駐紮廚房，不過就算是廚房仍然是門窗太多，別人易攻我們難守，甚至是大開中門，最後他們依我指示把所有門窗關掉，卻仍然剩下四道門窗。
不知是我方還是敵方不小心被人攻入，這士兵似乎是守最安全的其中一道門，但就受了重傷，慨嘆為什麼他會到了哪兒做這件事?不過攻這方這位看來也是，由他們痛苦的表情可以看出來，這感覺又不似是遊戲，好像真會受傷而死似的。這感覺又似社會心理學中箸名的「Conformity」實驗，就是之前朋友提到的要實驗者捉犯人的手按在電極上，以研究懲罰對教育的影響的行為主義心理學實驗(Miligram) ，不過是次為誇張版，因為兩個看來都是躺在地上。被人攻入我方就全軍盡墨，只剩下我和大哥兩個生還者。
離開/逃走時，大哥倖倖然的說，本來以為最差的情況是可以保住車票回香港，當成最後的籌碼，誰知不小心連這籌碼也輸掉。不過，似乎又不用擔心，只是形式上我們乘火車回去還是他們趕我們走的問題，我只要行為不檢，例如高喊釋放劉曉波，就即時不用火車票回香港。
不知是我方還是敵方不小心被人攻入，這士兵似乎是守最安全的其中一道門，但就受了重傷，慨嘆為什麼他會到了哪兒做這件事?不過攻這方這位看來也是，由他們痛苦的表情可以看出來，這感覺又不似是遊戲，好像真會受傷而死似的。這感覺又似社會心理學中箸名的「Conformity」實驗，就是之前朋友提到的要實驗者捉犯人的手按在電極上，以研究懲罰對教育的影響的行為主義心理學實驗(Miligram) ，不過是次為誇張版，因為兩個看來都是躺在地上。被人攻入我方就全軍盡墨，只剩下我和大哥兩個生還者。
離開/逃走時，大哥倖倖然的說，本來以為最差的情況是可以保住車票回香港，當成最後的籌碼，誰知不小心連這籌碼也輸掉。不過，似乎又不用擔心，只是形式上我們乘火車回去還是他們趕我們走的問題，我只要行為不檢，例如高喊釋放劉曉波，就即時不用火車票回香港。
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